ThedisposureofspiritswhichthisextraordinaryvisitthrewElizabethinto,couldnotbeeasilyovere;norcouldthisjourneyfromRosings,fortheportoftheirengagementcouldoriginate,Elizabethwasatalosstoimagine;tillsherecollectedthathisbeingtheintimatefriendofBingley,andherbeingthesisterofJane,wasenough,atatimewhentheexpectationofoneommunicationwiththeCollinses,thereport,sheconcluded,hadreachedLadyCatherine),hadonlysetthatdownasalmostcertainandimmediate,whichshehadlookedforwardtoaspossibleatsomefuturetime.
InrevolvingLadyCatherine'sexpressions,however,shecouldnothelpfeelingsomeuneasinessastotage,itoccurredtoElizabeththatshemustmeditateanapplicationtohernephew;andhowhemighttakeasimilarrepresentationoftheevhisdependenceonherjudgment,butitwasnaturaltosupposethathethoughtmuchhigherofherladyshipthanshecoulddo;anditwascertainthat,inenumeratingthemiseriesofamarriagewithone,whoseimmediateconnectionsweresouneqrguments,whichtoElizabethhadappearedweakandridiculous,containedmuchgoodsenseandsolidreasoning.
Ifhehadbeenwaveringbeforeastowhatheshoulddo,whichhadoftenseemedlikely,theadviceandentreatyofsoneararelationmightsettleeverydoubt,anddeterminehimiminherwaythroughtown;andhisengagementtoBingleyofingagaintoNetherfieldmustgiveway.
“If,therefore,anexcusefornotkeepinghispromiseshouldetohisfriendwbtainedmyaffectionsandhand,Ishallsoonceasetoregrethimatall.”
Thesurpriseoftherestofthefamily,onhearingwhotheirvisitorhadbeen,wasverygreat;buttheyobliginglysatisfied;andElizabethwassparedfrommuchteasingonthesubject.
Thenextmorning,asshewasgoingdownstairs,shewasmetbyherfather,whocameoutofhislibrarywithaletterinhishand.
“Lizzy,”saidhe,“Iwasgoingtolookforyou;eintomyroom.”
Shefollowedhimthither;andhercuriositytoknowwhathehadtotellherwasheightenedbythesupposition;andsheanticipatedwithdismayalltheconsequentexplanations.
ShetfThecolournowrushedintoElizabeth'scheeksintheinstantaneousconvictionofitsbeingaletterfromthenephew,insteadoftheaunt;andshewasundeterminedwhethermosttobepleasedthatheexplainedhimselfatall,oroffendedthathisletterwasnotratheraddressedtoherself;;butIthinkImayhatcanhehavetosay?”